I just can’t do this anymore and I don’t think I can go in for that “job experience” interview tomorrow morning.
This whole thing was sprung onto me today after I finally had a calm and normal morning and life for once in TWO MONTHS and then they drop this shit on me and forcing me to go tomorrow.
As much as I’d like to do this work (more like free labor with no pay for 6 months…) I’m just not mentally and emotionally stable - for anything actually.
And I thought today I was finally becoming stable until all this happened this afternoon.
So now I got two options.
1. Force myself to go to this interview at 9am and start working possibly tomorrow or something this week without pay.
2. Cancel it, get chewed at by my agency and maybe reschedule it for next Tuesday instead AND make a appointment with my Psychologist.
I honestly don’t know what to do but I do know that I should see my Psychologist ASAP. Two months of living hell for me is just too much for me to cope anymore and honestly, I’m on the verge of tears with just trying to cope any longer…
I think I’ll go with option two and risk being chewed out and yelled at by everyone…